|Posted on August 31, 2017 at 9:45 AM|
I have admitted I have some fear about this trip to John of God. The act of owning that fear has opened me up to the truth lurking beneath the fear; a crisis in surrender, trust, faith and hope, to mention a few. And of course, the very act of feeling the lack of these sets up a contractive energy coupled with the innate resistance engendered by fear – all in all, a perfect scenario for growth. I will admit as the emotion of fear, with all its attendant hangers-on, emerged as the dominant sensation registered first in my body, followed closely by the degradation of the thoughts floating through my conscious mind, I tried to ignore what was happening. As it became more and more obvious that ignoring served only to intensify the hold on me, my answer was to go into resistance on a physical level which manifests for me as a headache spreading down into my neck and shoulders. A very old pattern which thankfully, I recognize now. At this point, I begin pulling out my tools; Ho’oponopono, Access body processes, deep breathing… after, of course, taking aspirin! In retrospect, I have to laugh - the whole scenario is so predictable and follows the same pattern every time. Progress however, must be noted. Historically, these bouts would last anywhere from 1-3 days taking medication constantly during that time. Now, with my tools and awareness, I can usually shift my vibration in 12-18 hours. I am so grateful, as I’ve mentioned before, for my tools and the awareness I’ve developed over the years.
I start the trek to the Casa tomorrow morning, traveling by train from Beziers to Bordeaux. After a 5 ½ hour layover I fly from Bordeaux to Lisbon, arriving at 11 p.m., where I’ll spend the night in a hotel and depart Saturday morning at 9:30 a.m. for Brasilia, Brazil. I am at peace right now. I have noticed rather recently, this week has gone so slowly- literally time has slowed down, I think to allow me to process the feelings and emotions that have been, through the kind agency of my body, rising to the surface (my skin condition notwithstanding), demanding attention (see 8.30 blog post), resolution and integration. I am happy to say I have succeeded, my body is quiet, although I do sense alertness, anticipation. I hope to raise the vibration to that of contentment, optimism in today’s meditation/healing session using Access body processes, balancing/cleansing chakras, transmutation and visualizing gratitude, forgiveness, compassion and love flowing through, permeating to the cellular level. If that doesn’t do it, I don’t know what will! A very potent combination, I would venture to say. I’ll write more as I move forward…
UPDATE: 3:46 p.m. - An awesome meditation/body healing and grounding today. Feeling, on the EGS, positive expectation and happiness! I’ll put up the EGS for those of you who are not familiar with this tool from Abraham Hicks.
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