The Beginning, Now - The Middle
|Posted on December 14, 2017 at 11:45 PM||comments (1)|
My first posting in over 2 months! i had forgotten how writing soothes, clarifies, expands my awareness and feeds my soul. i can only say, as a preface, what I've written tonight, and how i feel now that it's on paper, reinforces i need to do this. No ifs, ands or buts. A spark, coming from something i've read or witnessed, a random thought floating through my mind, ignites, but until i sit down and begin typing, or even if i decide to record, it remains an ephemeral wisp of energy, nothing m...Read Full Post »
|Posted on October 5, 2017 at 9:50 AM||comments (1)|
Over the past 7 months or so I’ve created this tension with a partner in a business enterprise that spiraled out of the realm of loving energy, indeed, out of the reasonable and rational, into this hostility on both sides. Interesting to see how easy to slide into blaming the other person, feeling justified in one’s behavior choices; rationalizing and justifying my anger and sense of ill usage, while momentarily satisfying, did nothing to change the energy of our ongoing struggle....Read Full Post »
|Posted on October 2, 2017 at 12:10 AM||comments (0)|
10:30 a.m.: Meditation this morning in my room to ask for help to clear my space of the entities I seemingly invited back in and to do some healing work on my face which is atartting to release energy (manifesting as itching, of course, and roughness). I called in King Solomon (remembering that Phyllis had seen him around me during my post-intervention downtime), Jesus, Mary Magdalene and Joseph to assist and heal. The information I received is interesting – I create thi...Read Full Post »
|Posted on September 26, 2017 at 8:20 AM||comments (0)|
9.10-9.12 Update: I worked Sunday and Monday – skipped breakfast – and felt like I was in my usual work pattern! By Tuesday I was fried- I got up early and went and had 2 crystal bed sessions, working on myself the entire duration continuing once I got back to my hotel room. What a difference in my body! Definitely felt calmer and more integrated. No more work until I get home.
We, my group and I went to buy Phyllis an amethyst pendant she’d liked as an e...Read Full Post »
|Posted on September 23, 2017 at 11:45 AM||comments (0)|
This is the big day – it’s 7:30 a.m., I’m sitting in the garden of the casa waiting to be called to the first time line. The wait can be several hours, more typically, a couple- to go before the entities. It’s wonderful having a guide – in practical terms, Phyllis has been a great help with navigating what could be a confusing exercise especially given that each of us is focused on our own internal emotional state. She’s been leading groups sin...Read Full Post »
|Posted on September 21, 2017 at 8:10 AM||comments (0)|
i'm not sure how I'll end up posting what I journalled during my stay at the Casa - I feel like I will follow, as I do so often, the energy of what needs to be shared or what I need to share... the italisized type is me adding more information/explanations where I feel it necessary to clarify or expound on a topic.
2:50 a.m., Holiday Inn Express, Lisbon. As I cannot sleep I thought I’d take advantage of that and record what sticks out in my mind on...Read Full Post »
|Posted on August 31, 2017 at 9:45 AM||comments (0)|
I have admitted I have some fear about this trip to John of God. The act of owning that fear has opened me up to the truth lurking beneath the fear; a crisis in surrender, trust, faith and hope, to mention a few. And of course, the very act of feeling the lack of these sets up a contractive energy coupled with the innate resistance engendered by fear – all in all, a perfect scenario for growth. I will admit as the emotion of fear, with all its attendant hangers-on, emerged...Read Full Post »
|Posted on August 27, 2017 at 3:15 PM||comments (0)|
Moving forward remains, as ever, my primary directive. What does one do when the planets and stars and sun do not seem to be aligned with that purpose? Or what does one do when one’s body decides it’s time to release every bit (or so it feels) of energy no longer vibrationally compatible? With my trip to John of God less than a month away, I find myself rather at an impasse in the sense that my knowing this trip will shift my life into another gear yet I feel at a sta...Read Full Post »
|Posted on July 19, 2017 at 12:00 AM||comments (0)|
It occurred to me, following a seemingly random thought floating across my consciousness, to wonder how many of us choose to believe that our stories of ourselves are who we are. How much do we allow the stories we’ve adopted whether through direct experience and choice or through being told stories about how and what we are by significant people in our lives? And i ask this in relation to the vibrational variance, if any, between who we know to the deepest reaches of our beings, we tru...Read Full Post »
|Posted on June 30, 2017 at 7:40 AM||comments (0)|
I had forgotten I'd written this! Rereading it now I feel the urge to publish it on my blog. I hope you get as much out of it as I do! If anything resonates, feel free to follow that energy where it leads...
Sitting at my desk this morning, allowing the energy of the moment, the muffled sounds of neighbors in the street, children playing, a gentle wind whistling down the narrow street to the river, to wash over me, I experienced a moment of acute ...Read Full Post »